I left the MCR world.

     Before Danger Days was released, I promised myself that I'd get it the day it's thrown out for us to dig in to. But November 23 came and still, I haven't taken my ass of our couch and got that album that probably would evolve me to another person - a more self-appreciative one. I felt guilty, I let myself down. With an Echelon (yes, I am a fan of 30 stm) quote ( in the Closer To The Edge video), "Make a promise to yourself and you have to keep it, NO MATTER WHAT.", as one of the quotes I live with, I felt really bad. The other me was crying because of the broken promise and I felt really incomplete without the album in my possession. It was like an unattained success. So I locked myself out of the online MCR world, full of cheering, proud MCRmy's, and depended on my Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge and The Black Parade is Dead (gift from my beloved best friend) albums for my dose of chemical.

     And then I got up. I finally entered the record store. I was so excited. Every aisle, my heart pounded faster, stronger, and louder. Rock section. No Danger Days - hell, there wasn't even any MCR there. I started panicking. A saleslady was approaching. She seemed so slow, like she's in slow motion. I started walking towards her and blurted out, "Where's Danger Days?". "What?" Ah, shit. I hate this store. "DANGER DAYS!" I said louder now. "My Chemical Romance's new album?" She continued staring at me. Wow. This girl's clueless. Then in awkward silence she finally anwered, "Oh. Yeah. It's not here yet." And in my head I was killing myself w/ my famous last words as "FUUUUUUUUUUUU!" (you should follow me on Tumblr) " When will it arrive?" I hope tomorrow. I hope today. I hope in a minute. "I don't know", she answered. I gave her a poignant look for three seconds and left with my shoulders more slouched than ever (I use posture correctors. My shoulders are always a step in front of me so with them slouched MORE is a really baaaad look.)

    I am so depressed and fat (food's my antidepressant) right now. I would love to move to a different country and not feel this emptiness anymore. I should buy it online but man, the shipping fee would cost more than the CD itself and my mom isn't happy about it. If I want this CD, the best that I can do is wait and visit the store everyday (which I do). I'm still refusing to watch any videos related to Danger Days and the songs in it but I'm pretty much back. I still shall not post though. I have to keep myself more miserable so I'd have that drive to commute everyday just to be told the album isn't here yet.

     Do you have your copy? http://itunes.apple.com/us/album/danger-days-the-true-lives/id398265947